I wish...

I had a hobby. Or more than one. I love to read but can't seem to finish a book the past...7 years of my life. I take that back, I did manage to finish BodyCamp by Patricia Cromwell. But other than that, nothing else. I like lots of things...just can't seem to finish anything...I start 100 projects a year yet nothing materializes.

What do I like to do...well...

I like to cook but I do this almost daily so...not much of a hobby in my mind...

I like to paint like on a canvas...but I can't manage to get the visions out of my mind onto the canvas very good...it ends up looking like a 3 year old painted it...so I usually toss it...

I would love to make pottery...but do I have the time or the willpower to finish at least a bowl?

I like jewelry and love Victorian pieces, with beautiful gemstones and costumey feel but alas again, would I finish anything?

Maybe I need to make a resolution for myself to start ONE project and FINISH IT. And stop worrying about it being PERFECT just DO IT. I am the world's worst perfectionist. If it's not perfect I will either throw it away and become depressed OR keep it and look at it's imperfections and become depressed.

Heeeeeeeeeey..maybe THAT is my hobby! DEPRESSION! Why I can depress myself in a matter of seconds! And stay that way for days, weeks even years! Hmm....now THAT'S a feat not many can claim as a hobby huh? Or would want to I guess.

What I do the best is writing...especially my stories about Gwen and her late mommy. Gwen's story is so much like my own except I lost my daddy at her age. So I guess I put myself into the stories....and Gwen is so much like ME when I was a child, it's kinda weird...

I want to make Christmas cards too. I want to paint them. Handpaint.

And then maybe buy a potter's wheel...